Ostara in Avalon is cold. Really cold.

We all thought it would be spring and warmish so we forgot our gloves and extra jumpers. Fools!

I just got back from my fourth Priestess Training weekend, and I am amazed at how much the Goddess has showed up in my life over the past five months. We are working really closely with the wheel of the year, and it is incredible how much my life is transforming by being so deeply rooted in that cycle and it’s Goddesses.

Every single part of my life has been shaken up and presented to me as if to say, “Deal with this now!”. Even aspects of my life that I thought were fine and dandy and perfect have been brought up in Her mirror and poked at and prodded and agonised over.

It has been so soooo tough. These last few months in many ways have sucked. Really sucked.

But the high from that is that I am such a different person to who I was five months ago – I’m growing into a more awesome version of myself. Or stripping away the crap to expose the great. Your call.

I have so much more faith in myself than I did 5 months ago, and even though I am still shit scared, I am making real, tangible headway on the dreams and projects I’ve always wanted to do but was too terrified to start. I am kinder to myself. I am hella more focused in every way. I have reclaimed my grown-up-ness and realised, being a grown-up freaking RULES. I have super recommitted to my relationship, become more intuitive started having freaking VISIONS like a hardcore priestess person (which I never thought would happen to me), and I am owning my power and my finances. I KNOW Goddess is real and she helps us if we ask.

(Of course all that stuff means it was all shoved in my face and pulled apart till I dealt with it. Some greatest hits: “OH GOD HOLY CRAP I HAVE LITERALLY NO MONEY”, “I’m sucking so much at dance teaching right now”, “Do I even want to do this priestess stuff?”, “Goddess is a stupid idea”, “I hate myself so much” and finally “Maybe this relationship isn’t as perfect as I thought it was.”)

My advice – if you are thinking about doing the Priestess of Avalon course, don’t do it unless you are really ready and OK with transformation, like all over life overhaul transformation, because it happens. Before I started I was all, “Yeah, transformation, that’s nice, but surely it must be transformation in some kind of vague hippy way, not in a real world way. It’s not like you start this course lost and penniless and end up a focused badass business Priestess millionaire, or suddenly are having 3 honeymoons a year, or find your soulmate and dedicate your life helping orphans in Bolivia together.”

Super wrong!