As described before, I’ve been on a bit of a witchy rollercoaster of late.
I took a short holiday break in Glastonbury, and coincided it with a workshop with Z Budapest, which I was pretty dissapointed by, and lots of rambling up and down the Tor and down country lanes meeting squirrels and stuff, which was fabulous.
So, the morning after my workshop, I go up Glastonbury Tor to enjoy being up there and maybe to some meditating, who knows. But I am up there and I have cotton-wool brain – where I can’t focus on anything and you feel really scattered and grumpy like there is a fog that stops you interacting with the rest of the world. Grrr.
I came down the hill and went to Chalice Well Gardens. I loved it there, it was so pretty and gorgeous and peaceful. But I still had cotton-wool brain dammit.
So I went to find a bench on which to be grumpy and think useful, poignant things like “Why can’t I just enjoy myself?” and “Obviously I’m not meant to be a spiritual person because I feel like this” and “FaerieD, you suck”. I know, I know. Counter productive much?
I remembered something Franchesca de Grandis emphasises a lot in her work – constant purification. So I thought, well fuck it, if I ever need a purification ritual I need it now. So I concentrated on my breathing for a few minutes, then I sent the cotton-wool nonsense into the earth to be transformed into whatever the earth decided I needed at that moment.
And, for reals, cotton-wool brain was terminated and I was free and happy to enjoy my adventures, and I had a wonderful, spiritual, happy, amazing time.
Sometimes I wonder what I am doing following this spirituality gig of mine, when I was perfectly alright as an atheist before. Then a moment like this comes along where using practical witchery really improves my life and makes me happy, and I get it again.
It makes me happy.
Loved this, so me! I have the same troubles, thoughts, ideas and revelations sometimes. It can be so bloody hard to be enlightened! Hee hee! Glastonbury is very beautiful and has some fab shops but some of the people there really are ‘spiritualier than thou’, if you know what I mean! So you can be disappointment by some of the things on offer in terms of shops and workshops, but there are some real gems too, people and places alike. If you are ever down this way again, give me a shout, I’d love to meet up.
Love & Lite
Joolz (Fox – Goddess Circle) 🙂 x
Thank you so much for your comment! I agree, glastonbury can be a bit overwhelming, I particularly find all the crazy pagan stuff and tools makes me feel a bit intimidated. What would I use this for? And, more importantly, when?!
That would be fab – Hopefully I will be visiting Glastonbury again some time next year, so maybe I shall give you a shout in 2012!! xx