Something I worry about a lot, as someone with mental health stuff and sometimes depression and a mind that just endlessly worries about anything and everything is that people are going to be able to tell that my inner world is a mess by picking up on my energy.
Does having depression ruin my spiritual energy?
I know, I know it’s a silly fear – omg but what if everyone is telepathic and can tell that I am anxious?!?!? – and I don’t pay it much attention, but it’s one of those dick thoughts in the back of my mind.
I have always admired those people with a beautiful vibe. Maybe you have met one of them – something bout their energy and vibe is just so vibrant and pure and gorgeous and magnetic. There is just something about that that is just… magic. You just want to watch them for some reason, and you get such a feeling of presence being with them.
I’ve met a lot of people like that and it’s really special.
And, secretly, I’ve always wanted to be like that too, have that beautiful vibe and presence that uplifts and inspires others…
…and my anxious brain often likes to tell me that’s just 100% impossible for me because of my melancholic streak. My brain likes to assume that any kind of anxiety or mental health stuff just utterly cancels out the Magic Vibes, even though that’s not true.
So if you are like me someone that has mental health stuff and secretly feels like depression must be ruining your energy…
… I want you to know that many people who have this pure vibrant incredible energy also have depression or anxiety at the same time.
I know people like this. Like a lot of really magical, inspiring, big-vibe people.
You can even be in a mental health crisis, and still your energy can be utterly beautiful.
You don’t get good vibes by being perfect (that’s not what spirituality is) and mental health issues are not a spiritual failing.
You don’t become less spiritual if you loose a leg or break your arm – and you don’t loose spiritual brownie points for your mental health either.
You are not only allowed to have a beautiful aura (that’s what it is) if your whole life is put together and you never have any hard moments or anxiety or mental health demons.
Mental health stuff doesn’t cancel out your ability to be a priestess, or a spiritual being, or a witch, or to cultivate great vibes, or snuff out your auric presence, and your you-ness is not defined by your mental health – you are SO MUCH BIGGER than that.
I know it’s hard to see when we are living in it – when our inner world is coloured by our existence of living with depression or anxiety or whatever it is it’s easy to imagine that that’s what everyone else sees looking at you too – but you are more than that.
When you live in yourself you cannot see yourself.
Your mental health is just a part of you, not the whole of you – like your physical beauty is a part of you, not the whole of you, or your burning desire to befriend all crows is a part of you, not the whole of you.
This has been a really reassuring thing for me to feel into the last month. Maybe it will reassure you too.
Underworld goddesses are really helpful for teaching us mental health folk to accept and love ourselves, mental health stuff and all, and hold ourselves as we descend into the underworld again and again. Morgan le Fay is one of those Goddesses – you can learn about her if you fancy it to in my free Priestess Activation:
